It’s difficult to reinvent one’s self when one really hasn’t invented one’s self fully. I’ll explain. I’m a wife and mother. Sure, there’s more to me, but I’ve yet to really discover what that is. I don’t really have any hobbies. I love to read – when I get a chance to plop myself down with a book and keep my eyes open longer than the turn of a page, which hasn’t happened in a long while. I enjoy watching tv and movies. I love having date nights with my husband and girls’ nights with my friends. But are those really hobbies? I’m not sure. I’ve been told I’m a good writer, but I beg to differ – I know so many people who are way better writers than myself.
Here’s a confession. As my children are getting older at the ripe old ages of 3 and 1, I feel like my “born on date” is about to expire. I’ve been a stay-at-home mom since Abby was born in September of 2008 and wouldn’t trade that for the world and I truly mean that. I’ve been blessed to be able to work part-time from home and I enjoy being able to have adult conversations and be stressed to tears about meeting deadlines. But, the notion of my children growing up and entering into school full-time scares me. That means I’ll have to go back to work full-time and I have no idea what I’ll be qualified to do at that point. That means I’ll have to shift my focus from my children to myself. I hate attention being focused on me. So, do we have baby #3 to postpone the inevitable? Am I really considering bringing another child into this world just so I can delay re-entering the working world? I’ll admit it – possibly. There, I said it.
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